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Daily writing prompt

How are you feeling right now?

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Right now, like most of the time, I’m anxious. I push myself ahead and at the same time I resist change. It’s my paradox. I do what I don’t want to do because I know it’s the right thing to do: a lot of “do’s.” I put a book out and now is the time to market it. Part of me wishes I never published at all. (Good thing I’m not holding my magic snow globe, The Santa Clause Three, The Escape Clause (2006)). Every time I take a new step promoting myself, I get more anxious. I don’t know if success will help or worsen the anxiety. One may say, don’t do it if it makes me so nervous. That’s the rub. Part of me knows I must march forward. My father became an anonymous hermit; I don’t want to go that path, so I march forward with my heart in my stomach until I get use to mingling with the world. My father’s ghost keeps my cave warm, just in case.